Too Many Thoughts to Share Anything

There’s so much going through my mind right now… too many things on too many items/topics… I wouldn’t even know where to begin sharing.

I’m not really stressing, but I’m not really happy right now either. I’m constantly catching attitudes with people over the smallest things… at first I thought it was just my “only child syndrome” (which is MY way or the highway!) but although I can admit I’m very spoiled and can be selfish, I’m not THAT selfish. People are just inconsiderate and I don’t have the patience to deal with other people’s attitudes… I have enough of my own to hold me over.

I’m realizing that I have an address full of names and numbers in my phone, I don’t have as many friends as I thought. That’s kinda depressing.

Like I said, there’s just so much in my head right now, I don’t even know what to blog about. So I won’t.. I just wanted to let ya’ll know that I am alive. And if you are in my email address book, best believe that you will receive an email from me sooner or later

Until my head is clear……

What’s Been Going on With Me

I’ve been a busy bee – well not that busy, but busy

Friday the 13th, my strip-aerobics class offered a “hip hop” night. Me and my girls attended. That was a lot of fun. We learned a new routine and my body was sore as hell all that weekend!

This past Saturday was my mom’s 51st birthday (and The Mistress – happy belated birthday hun!) T&J Promotions hosted an appreciation “pool” party for some people that came out a lot and supported us in our first year. I put pool in quotes because the owners of the location that we had the party at, decided to wait til the last min to try and get the pool cleaned… and therefore if didn’t get cleaned in time for people to swim. I had a big time attitude about it… but I got over it. Money had been spent, invitations sent… so there was nothing left to do but make the best of a bad situation.. So it turned into am appreciation cookout / fight party. It was a nice turnout. Everyone got drunk and had a great time. Our closest friends stayed the night with us and helped us clean up and stuff. I love my friends… they’re great!

Yesterday… I added a new addition to my life.

This is my DREAM truck. The very first time I saw the grill on this bad boy… I fell in love! I’ve always wanted it, and now I got it… I’m all grown up and a big girl now

Last night… I went to see Eve. It was a good show, yet disappointing. The website said the show started at 8.. but actually, doors opened at 8. The first act didn’t get on stage til about 10:15… the first dude came out (don’t know who he was) did a 1/2 of a verse and walked off stage.. then Young Berg got ready to come out, and they had technical difficulties w/ the sound.. Once they got that together, he did his thing. He had a lot of energy, but it was hard to rock w/ him b/c everybody only knew his one song for real. Then there was like a 30 min intermission before Eve came out. When she did come out.. she rocked it.. all but 30 min. And I blame Konan & KIS (the promoters) for that b/c at 8PM, Eve and Young Berg was at 92Q’s radio station on the ait.. instead of at Ram’s Head Live getting ready, testing out the equipment and shit! And then of course they had an afterparty so Eve could only stay on stage but for so long b/c she had to make an appearance there… I don’t think I’ll be attending another Konan/KIS show…

I’ve also been planning and meeting our next party on Aug 10th. This is not working out the way it was supposed to.. we had our first meeting about the party, the Mon after our last party… Flyers are still not printed… We started early so that we can bring more people out, but it’s gonna turn out the same way as the last party cause we’re working with the same amount of time.

August is going to be a busy month for me. I have a crab feast, Beyonce concert, our party, bus trip to AC, and me and GTL’s anniversary…. Not to mention, find time to plan MY birthday party in Sept.
So I’ve been keeping busy… Haven’t really been blogging (or reading for that matter) because school is almost over (today is my last day) and I had to make sure I had everything together for my presentation tonight.

GodParents

A godparent, in many denominations of Christianity, is someone who sponsors a child’s baptism. Traditionally, the godparents were counted informally responsible for ensuring that the child’s religious education was carried out, and for caring for the child should he/she be orphaned. Today the word “godparent” may not have explicitly religious overtones. The (particularly) modern definition of godparent is an individual chosen by the parents to take a vested interest in raising a more complete human being.

My godmother didn’t live up to this definition. I haven’t seen or spoken to her since I was 11 maybe… Because I understood the definition of godparent, I was determined to live up to what I was expected to do if I were ever asked to be a godparent.

Well… I have 2: a goddaughter who is 6 and a godson who will be 5 on Saturday. Despite the fact that it’s very hard for me to keep female friends beyond a certain about of years (LOL) I’ve tried my very best to be a part of my godchildren’s lives. Not so much w/ the goddaughter cause me and her mother fell out before she turned 1.. and only became cool again this year… so it’s kind of hard just to pop back in her life and expect her to be willing to hang out with a complete stranger.

But with my godson… that’s my baby. He has (and always will have) a special place in my heart. His mother and I have a love/hate relationship. Either we’re the best of friends or the worst of enemies… we usually don’t have a median. The last time I saw him was the weekend that Spiderman came out. The last time I spoke w/ her was on MySpace and that was a discussion about T&J Promotions throwing her a birthday party this weekend. Well.. we don’t have anything planned for July and we just got off of a every week gig and need a break… so that wasn’t going to happen. No comment from her about that… and I haven’t heard from her since.

Now… as I said my baby’s birthday is Saturday… and I’m like, should I get him something? It’s not his fault that his mother and I can’t keep a friendship going strong… Although it would be nice to hear from him from time-to-time. Right now my schedule is kinda jam-packed – full time job, part time job, company, school – so I wouldn’t be able to get him all like that anyways… but I can’t even call him. His mom has a pre-paid and she doesn’t answer it… only texts or talks on the 2-way.

I was talking to my best friend about whether or not I should buy him a gift… She first said no b/ct he responsibility of the godmother is not to buy presents all the time but to help make them a better person.. then she said that if I do get him something, make sure it’s educational – that would be a waste of money. So I guess the answer is no.. and attempt to call him and talk to him.. maybe even see if I can get him probably Sun to just hang out for a bit.

Being a godparent shouldn’t be this damn difficult… I know I’m not taking on the role again. And when I have kids… whoever I decide to be the godparents will be people that understand the meaning of the word – and not someone that I have a love/hate relationship with.

Burial of the Word “Nigga”

So I’ve been MIA from blogland for while. I’ve popped up here and there to read a few of my favorites.. not much has been going on with me and I didn’t have anything to share with you guys… until today.

So I’m sure you guys have heard all over ya’ll radio that the NAACP held a mock funeral and burial of the word “Nigga.” It was a part of their “STOP” campaign which is an initiative of the NAACP Youth & College Division that seeks to “STOP” the demeaning images of African Americans in the media, particularly with respect to the portrayal of African American women.

Before I get started, let me just say this… these are MY thoughts on the situation. If you don’t agree with me, more power to you… don’t disrespect me on my blog cause I will delete your comments in a heart beat. I respect your opinion, whether I agree or not and I would never try to belittle anyone just because I don’t see eye-to-eye with you. Please feel free to comment with your opinion, but do not attack thoughts or the thoughts of any of my commenters.

Now… I first heard about this yesterday evening on my way to school. I agreed with most callers that although it was a nice gesture to try to strengthen our community, it was pointless. Just because the NAACP decided to bury the world, doesn’t mean that the rest of the Black community will do the same. And that was pretty much my take on the whole thing.

This morning, on my way to work, I was listening to the Russ Parr morning show and Russ Parr read a letter from a 16-year-old boy from Alexandria, Louisiana that just moved me. I changed to the station a little after he started reading the letter, so at the time, I thought it was from one of his adult listeners. The letter was very well written and it touched so many valid points. The boy talked about how the NAACP is seen as a joke by many nowadays because they’re still trying to battle situations from the 60s and 70s – such as the use of the N-word. He said that the problem with our society is NOT the use of the N-word or the way women are portrayed. He stated that the NAACP needs to be more worried about helping our societies with education and economics. Then he said.. if the NAACP really wants to do something, they would come to his town where 5 high school boys on trial for 2nd-degree murder and aggravated assault (can’t remember if it’s attempted or not) for jumping a white high school student. The kids jumped the boy because of racial tension at the school – the prior week of the incident – whites boys hung 3 nooses outside of the school on the tree. The 5 boys are being tried by a jury of all white peers. I just thought that situation was so sad! The town is 85% white, so they’re all probably going to be found guilty AND the judge will probably be harsh as to not upset the public in the town. But not only was the situation sad, the boy is right! The NAACP spends their time arguing and defending things that most people really don’t give a shit about, when they could use their time, efforts, name, and reputation to truly help our communities.

Another caller made a very valid point – that WE give the word value by making a big deal out of it. We can’t make people stop using the word, but if we stop becoming so offended by the use of it, then it will eventually die, or at least not have the same effect that had it had and/or currently has.

My take on the situation, really hasn’t changed. I still agree that the burial was a nice gesture, but a waste of time. But the letter and comment opened more thoughts on the situation for me. What has the NAACP done (differently) lately to help empower the Black community to be better equipped to be successful and get out of poverty-stricken neighborhoods and lifestyles? When’s the last time the NAACP has stood up for someone on a trial that hasn’t hit mainstream media prior to them doing so? They made this big hurrah about STOP the use of the N-word and STOP portraying women so poorly in the media – but truth is: this is a free country. People are going to do and say whatever it is that they want regardless of who’s asking them to stop. Women won’t stop being portrayed in the media negatively until WOMEN decide to stop accepting positions that do.

As far as the N-word is concerned… many people called to say nowadays it’s a term of endearment – umm, NO! I disagree that the word should now be justified as a term of endearment cause it’s not. If/when I (any many people I know) use it.. I’m talking negatively about some fool who did something trifling and/or ignorant. Now although I agree the term is negative, I also don’t feel that the word is as serious these days as they were before. I agree with the caller that says WE give the word the power to destroy us. The use of the word doesn’t offend because the definition of it is ignorance – I’m far from the definition so…. I don’t know.. I’m just rambling. Basically, my opinion is that it was a nice gesture to try to bring us together as a community, but it’s not going to make a difference and the NAACP needs to find better ways and movements to help the Black community. What’s your take?

Good Weekend

So just as I said in my post on Friday, everything went well and I was freaking out for nothing. We had a great turn out. We made a lot of money, the club made a lot of money, and everyone was happy – for the most part. The club wants us back ASAP… we’re definitely not going to rush back into it. We have a meeting with the other group that we worked with tonight… although we had bumps along the way, I can’t front, without them, we wouldn’t have been as successful as we were.

My brother aka the DJ… he kind of blew me. He was late. He wasn’t prepared.. He got a shit load of hot songs, put them on CD’s, but then didn’t have a playlist to go along with them. So he didn’t know what songs were where. Then, his needles broke. Luckily he was able to get a spare, but only 1 spare… so he couldn’t really mix like he was supposed to. He wasn’t bad, but he wasn’t great either! He wants to have an ongoing relationship with us whenever we have events, but he has to do better. The ultimate decision isn’t up to me, especially if we’re working with another group. I want to give him one more chance to do what I know he’s capable of doing… but if he fucks up again, sorry… friends & family is one thing, but business is another….

I had a busy ass weekend – full of parties and get-togethers. We had our finale Friday night. Saturday I went to a Pajama Party. Me and my twin really weren’t in the mood to go, but the girl that was having the party, she always comes out to support me, so I had to return the favor. And I’m glad I did. Twin and I had a freaking ball! We danced all night. The party was 10 – until. We got there about 11:30 and stayed til 3AM. The music was great. A lot of the dudes were mad cool… just there to party and have a great time, and not try to push all up on anyone. Some of them girls in there though… man-oh-man… they wanted to get raped! Their outfits were so damn skimpy it was a shame. Their asses were out… their boobs were out… they had lace and sheer crap on…. Ladies… please have more respect for yourselves. Twin and I both wore a cute pajama set which consisted of capris and a wife-beater. And what was so great… is that we had on flip flops! Our feet were so comfortable… but it did take a little adjusting cause we’re so used to partying in heels. But it was a lot of fun.

Sunday we had our “Sunday Dinner.” That was so much fun. It was a New Orleans theme: gumbo, jambalaya, dirty rice, fried fish, and hurricanes. Yummy!!! Then we went to the bar and got nice and toasty… not wasted, but toasty.

I had a great weekend. It was spent with good friends and family and involved a lot of drinks and dancing and laughter… just good times.

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I’m stressing ya’ll… Venting about it won’t make me feel better. I have a serious attitude over something that I can’t really control. Just know that I’m learning from my mistakes and I won’t be making them again. This promotions thing is a little tougher than I thought it would be… but GTL and I are working it out….. We’ll be good. Monday or Tuesday I should be posting about what a success tonight was, and that I was stressing for nothing!

My Tuesday

I had a cool day yesterday despite it feeling like 100 degrees outside! I’m on Uno’s (Pizzeria) email list. They emailed me inviting me and a guest to a free VIP party at their restaurant. Free food? Of course, I signed up… quickly!! So GTL and I went to dinner last night. It was nice. All the food they served and non-alcoholic beverages were free. They didn’t serve the entire menu, but what they had was pretty good. They served mini-burgers and chicken sandwiches, different types of pizzas, onion rings (YUCK!!) chicken tenders, and desserts. They brought out bite-size servings so you were able to taste multiple things without getting full, fast.

The air in GTL’s apartment is not working properly. We’re awaiting maintenance to fix that shit! Cause it’s like hell in his place. So on the way home, I stopped and got a large snowball (to be prepared for the heat.)

We got to the apartment and watch the BET music awards. We missed the J. Hudson & J. Holliday performance, but saw everything else. Mo’Nique know she be working it out! LOL. I didn’t think the awards show was bad… I mean it was great, but it didn’t really suck to me. I read an article where the person was like it was one of the worse… I would have to disagree. I’m just mad at the videos from fans that they chose to air. I think the best one was from the dude in D.C. (55 cent) with his son… that shit was funny as hell! And cute. The 2 videos from the people in Maryland – I’m disappointed. Please don’t think that all people in Maryland are like those weirdo’s… cause they’re not!!! I don’t know what the hell that was with the old lady talking to R. Kelly, moving her arms, talking bout he’s not the only person that can fly! Me and GTL were like WTF is that?!?!?! LOL. I went home after the show cause I don’t do hell the heat.

So I had a good day yesterday… Very chill after a busy weekend of staying up late to pass out flyers for our party Friday. I’m sure GTL enjoyed just as much as me because he’s been going out damn near every night to hand out flyers. *Note to self – don’t order 5,000 flyers again! *

I Can’t Wait Until Next Saturday

GTL and I have been working hard for our party next Friday. And that hard work entails partying each night to hand out flyers. Now as much as I like to party.. going out multiple times during the week is just too much for me. So after our party next Friday.. I will not HAVE to party anywhere for a while!!! Anywhere I decide to go, will be because I WANT to be there, not because I’m REQUIRED to be there.

Tonight… my girls and I will be headed out to party and distribute flyers. Tomorrow, I’m going to my company’s family picnic and to a kickball cookout. Both should be fun. Then tomorrow night.. me and the girls will be catching the let out of some clubs (we’re not partying, just catching the crowd as they’re released from the club) to hand out flyers. Sunday night.. we’re going to another club to party/promote there as well.. but we won’t be there late cause we all have to go to work in the morning.

So.. Luvin’ Me is back… and gone all in the same post. LOL. Glad to know she’s not gone forever though, like I originally thought. Today is the 1-year anniversary of FiF’s on my boy Freaky’s blog. I can’t wait to see it. See how many of my Fuck it’s made the final list. I love those posts when he does them. They’re so damn funny! And true at the same time. LOL

I’m loving my summer class. No papers involved. No tests involved. Just stupid current events and class participation with a few group projects in between. Can we say… Easy A

Has anyone heard Akon’s “I’m Sorry” song… that has got to be the stupidest song I have ever heard. Every other line is I’m Sorry. And then at the end, he calls himself apologizing for freaking the girl on stage, but then turns around and says it’s the girl’s fault.. but he take blame for it. WTF? Now a lot of songs out here are stupid as hell.. but I actually listened to the words on that one the other morning and was in total disbelief.

OK.. Not much going on with me. So let me find out what’s going on with ya’ll.

Not Completely Rested, But Better

LOL @ all of those that didn’t think I was going to rest like I should’ve. Shame on you for doubting me! LOL. Naw.. but ya’ll know me so well. HAHA. It was only on Friday though!

We went to the happy hour (that I didn’t want to go to!) It was cool… They had 2-4-1 drinks.. and all I had were 2 Long Islands… gee me wiz! LOL. I was feeling good! Then we saw 2 of GTL’s college buddies so we sat with them, and they decided to get a shot of Bin Laden (Whisky, dark Rum, and Vodka) = DISGUSTING!!!! I can’t stand whisky. The smell of it makes me want to vomit. I took a sip, and gave the rest to GTL. By time we left, I felt GREAT and was ready to party. We had to go to our normal club anyway to turn in the contract for 6/29, and there was a party going on.. so of course I wanted to stay. The dude throwing the party was the dude we were original working with, but our relationship came to an end, but we were still on good terms. We got in for free…

We were there MAYBE an hour and then everything went downhill. The turntables weren’t working properly. One of them were OOC. The DJ was able to work with it, there would just be no mixing, just one song played after the other… No biggie, you couldn’t really tell anyway. Next thing I know, the dude hosting the party, gets on the mic and was like “I’m sorry ya’ll. It’s not our fault. The equipment is messed up, but we’re going to party through it anyway!” Five minutes go by, and he gets back on the mic and was like, “Fuck this. Our money ain’t no good here. We gone. I’ll never do a party in Baltimore again. Come to DC, July 6 at Republic Gardens!” So everybody is just standing like WTF! Is he serious? The DJ still had the music playing… So he snatches the amp from the turntable and was like, “I’m serious! Shut this shit down! We’re going DC, See you July 6th” And then he walked out… and everybody followed. Me and GTL were sitting at the bar, dying laughing. Like, OMG, no he didn’t! That was real crazy and BOLD of him. Some people just paid $20 to get into that club and were heated! The club ain’t care.. cause the bar was jumping before yo had a tantrum! Dude will never have a successful party in Baltimore again… let alone DC. Cause I’ll be damned if I would drive to DC to party and he shut shit down like that there and I don’t even get a refund! And if I would’ve paid to get in there Friday, me and dude would’ve had some issues… that night!!!

Saturday.. I did nothing. I went with my mother to my grandmother’s house so she could do her hair. I was laid up on the couch watching TV. I was a little disappointed because USA wasn’t showing any Law & Order Marathons. They were showing a bunch space movies. The few that we watched were pretty good. Then we went back home, and then GTL came and got me. We went to his house. We got subs and fries and pigged out. LOL. And the finally the Law & Order SVU marathon came on. I watched that until I passed out.

Sunday.. the plan was to go to church.. but that didn’t happen. I slept in and then got up and took my father to lunch for father’s day… nowhere special, just Applebee’s, but he was happy. And it was cool doing dinner with him and talking and stuff… We’ll have to do that again. After that, I went to a cookout. (Yeah I was greedy all weekend! LOL) Stayed there for a few hours and then went home and crashed.

Yesterday… did the doctor’s and dentist thing. Took a nap and then headed to class. Yesterday would’ve been sooo much better if I didn’t have class, but oh well.

So doing nothing did rest my body.. but I didn’t sleep as much as I would’ve liked. But that’s cool.. there’s always this weekend

Edit: I meant to add… I received an email yesterday in response to the flyer that T&J Promotions have been emailing out for June 29th (same pic that’s on the website.)

T & J Promotions,
I find this picture disgusting and it truly shows a lack of taste. I don’t care for the explotation of women to sell a good time. Please don’t ever send me another piece of mail. Shame on you.

My initial reaction to this was.. Fuck you! I didn’t ask for your opinion, and you obviously have not seen ALL of the flyers that are distributed in Baltimore. And then I was also pissed off cause this person CC’d someone on the email that had NOTHING to do with what she was saying. The person that was CC’d is someone that put together a happy hour for a group of people in March. The person that sent the email was a guest of theirs. Anyway… that pissed me off.. and “Tiffany” wanted to respond… but then I had to remember that this person didn’t send an email to “Tiffany” the email was sent to T&J Promotions… so I let GTL respond b/c sometimes when I say something, even though I mean well, my attitude comes through. So his was response was:

We do apologize if our advertisement offends you. It is not our intent to be disrespectful or offensive to any of our patrons.
We will respectfully adhere to your request and will remove you from all T&J Promotional mailings.
Enjoy your summer

He’s so much better than me. Cause a part of me wanted to ignore them and continue to send them stuff… I mean, I can respect the person’s opinion, but there are more tactful ways in expressing your opinion. Fucker!!!! I think the email was rude and the person being CC’d was uncalled for. And I’m really not pressed about taking them off anyway, cause no one from that group has been to any of our events since the one in March. So that’s just cutting down on my mailbox space. Thanks

Tired

I’m so tired… My partying and not getting enough rest is catching up with me. I’m still hurt from the lack of sleep from the weekend we went to Atlantic City. I haven’t had a chance to take a nap and catch up yet… until this weekend, that is!!!

I have NO plans for the weekend… actually, my plan is to do NOTHING. Tonight, no real partying… Just a happy hour (that I don’t really want to go to, but you can’t expect people to support you if you don’t support them) for one of GTL’s coworker. Tomorrow.. I’m sure there will be some Law & Order marathon going on, on USA. Can’t wait! Sunday.. I’m going to church and then taking my dad to an early dinner for Father’s Day. I haven’t had a relaxing weekend in a long time and I plan to take full advantage of it!

Thank you all for your feedback on my website. I updated most of the suggestions… So Freaky.. you can now click on the flyer and see a bigger picture of the half naked chick

I’ve been such a slacker in blog-land these past few weeks. I read like one post a week from my normal reads… I don’t know what it is.. I just haven’t felt like reading…. And I can’t blame it on being busy at work.. I just don’t feel like it! LOL.

I’m kinda curious as to what’s going on with Luvin’ Me.. I’m sure she’s Mrs. Luvin’ Me by now. She was one of my favorite reads and then she just up and disappeared.. no warning.. no good-bye.. just vanish. Oh well.. I’m sure she’s happy down in Texas (at least I hope she is.)

I’m off Monday. I have my routine doctor’s and dentist appointment… which means 3-day weekend for me. So I’m really looking forward to 4:30PM today!!!

My best friend and I haven’t spoken since Monday with our little spat online. She hasn’t been on Google all week… nor has she called me. I’m stubborn, and I won’t be the first to call. So we’ll probably give each other the silent treatment for a few more weeks and then everything will be everything again. I don’t really care right now though.

I have a friend.. that the more we talk to try to keep the friendship alive… the more one of us gets annoyed with the other… wanting to end the friendship. We’ve known each other for too long for us to want to end the friendship… but the more and more we talk, the more I think it may be best for the both of us. I don’t know… we’ll see. Sometimes he’s moodier than a girl PMS’ing… so he may just be in one of his moods.

My manager is in one of his moods today. He’s just as bad as my friend. I’m not going to say anything to him.. because since I’m tired, I’m grouchy and if he says the wrong thing to me, I’m liable to curse his ass out. And I need my job. LOL

Have a good weekend!!!!!!!!